I try to tell myself to hold on to these moment's as they pass

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 21:32:59 GMT

i need a creative and sexy costume for halloween

doesnt matter how much....i just want it to be sweeeeeeet

any ideas?

random thought

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 20:30:12 GMT

i know i dont really post in this but lately i have seen a lot of variations of the same phrase in a lot of away messages or facebook statuses and im just trying to figure out why.

in the past week i have seen dozens of away messages stating that someone is "trying to look hot or attempting to look hot, and then going out". Now this frustrates me beyond words. Mostly because these away messages belong to some of the most beautiful girls and women that i know, but also because of the notion that we all are insecure about the way we look everyday. Every girl while getting ready does her best to look pretty, look hot, look alluring and after the thousands of poses in the mirror and most likely an absurd amount of time getting ready (a number that if anybody knew about we would probably not be able to show our faces) we go out and hope for the best.

i just want people to realize that you are what you are and if you are insecure its okay, but instead of publicizing your insecurities, look in the mirror and say. hey i am hot.

this is the end of this public service announcement

help!

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 18:50:16 GMT

So yah i'm auditioning for American Idol next weekend and i have no idea what to sing.

I was maybe thinking of singing crazy by gnarls barkley in a more jazzy/pop way.

Any other ideas? im a mezzo and would prefer not to belt above a high C

thanks for any and all help/suggestions

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 06:22:18 GMT

finished.

amazing.

In love with that harry potter boy am i

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 07:38:20 GMT

So....saturday morning i went to get harry potter in my Pjs, but seeing as it was a beautiful day i spent it outside playing and then later on having a glorious fiesta of sorts that turned into a 4am lovefest.

Thus i awoke this morning (sunday morning) still roughly 80 pages shy of finishing half blood prince (for the third time) as i thought it would be best to go directly from half blood to deathly hallows. I began reading at noon. finished HBP by 1:30 or so with minimal interupption and opened book seven, i almost didnt want to because i knew that was the last time i ever get to open a brand new harry potter book to read it for the first time.
i wanted to make it last. maybe take a few days, but seeing as how a bunch of dumb fuckers (you know who you are) have posted telling things about the book all over the internet, their away messages, lj's, and facebook (and really you guys can suck a nut for doing that one....facebook...really?) i have decided on finishing the book tonight. i have now been reading on and off with minimal breaks for 14 hours...and i just found out what the deathly hallows are (thanks j.k)...i dont have to work tommorow.

here

i

go.................

Please take a moment

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 20:48:45 GMT

So kids...i try not to use this as a soapbox but in this case it is necccesary.

Today i got hit by a car.
I was obeying all the traffic laws, i had the light, and i got hit by a car.
I also was not wearing a helmet.

By some miracle i was rushed to the ER and there was nothing broken and nothing to bad done to my body aside from some cuts and what will tommorow by some REDICULOUS bruising.

I cannot believe how lucky i am. If that guy had been going faster than 7 miles an hour, or if i had fallen a different way things may not have turned out so great. And the one thing people kept telling me was you should wear a helmet.

honestly the only reason i wasn't was because i dont have one at school and didnt wanna spend 20 bucks to buy one.but you can bet i will alway wear one from now on.

and this Public Service Announcement is just so everyone is aware that people really do get hit by dumb ass fuckers in cars all the time, and (at the risk of sounding corny) it can save your life

ARGGHHH

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 03:47:02 GMT

i just got an email and the subject was

"make your fat friends envy you"

sometimes i realy hate the world

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 18:04:19 GMT

oh man...

how do i not wanna clean agganis let me count the ways

its already december 18th?!?!?!?!?

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 07:31:43 GMT

everything is absolutely nutso right now!!

im just throwin it out there.

as of 5pm tommorow i will officially be on break and im really excited to see a lot of old faces...people i havnt seen in so long because i was so freakin busy this semester...and even people who i have seen in the past 4 months...i'll be glad to have a whole month with them. my last christmas break (that will be of any decent length).

its so strange to rewind to August 24th....
the day i said goodbye to summer...i remember thinking about how hard i thought these 4 months were gunna be (there were some really hard times) and it seemed as if december and christmas were never gunna come, but they are here SO fast its made my head spin and i almost dont know what to do with myself anymore.

any suggestions?

lets just enjoy this all.

i will not mourn for you

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 07:02:04 GMT

i felt on the verge of tears all day...

and then i actually cried twice...

the worst part is that i thought i knew why i felt this way....but the more i think about it...the more i don't know

when can it all just be normal?

AHHH HELP

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 08:26:03 GMT

ok so im a senior and i have to overload next semester....

only 3 credits.

does anyone know any 3 credit classes...or a realy fun and easy 4 credit class?

PLEASE HELP I REGISTER AT 10

really now

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 08:07:24 GMT

im ready to catch a break....

to not have to fight to graduate
to get a good nights sleep
to know whats going on
to be happy in all respects...

im not accepting "you're really great but..." as an answer anymore

beauty in words

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 04:55:04 GMT

You wait, wanting this world
To let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light
In dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind
A God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to believe
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play
But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 14:35:45 GMT

knowing i can go to a bar at midnight is one of the COOLEST THINGS EVER

another audition

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 21:37:33 GMT

so i need a song that i can belt.....

they want belty songs...

but the problem is...what are the good belty songs that EVERYONE ELSE isnt going to sing...

ie: i dont wanna go in there with take me or leave me...or all that jazz...

Help!

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 04:39:37 GMT

when i sit here alone
just me and my thoughts
and my music
my heart hurts

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 04:59:42 GMT

i looked up at the stars tonight

so clear so beautiful.

they reminded me of the sky that inspired me not too long ago.

again i am in love with life

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 04:33:57 GMT

saying goodbye feels like a pound of bricks crashing down onto my chest

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 05:33:58 GMT

im so in like

Mon, 01 May 2006 05:57:01 GMT

for all you faithful a cappella fans...

for next semester we have added

Bastard - Ben Folds
Someday - The strokes
Here With Me - Dido
You Learn - Alanis Morrisette
You're an Ocean - Fastball

im super excited!

i also got VP which is also really awesome cuz i have a lot of fun stuff planned for next year.

so other than that not much going on other than you know.....finals!

i have on tuesday one wednesday and one on saturday and then its back to the North Shore for this one...

pssssssst its summer :)

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 07:54:36 GMT

i remember the last time i felt like this....
the last time i was in this situation

it was september of senior year of high school

and we all know how that turned out

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 06:29:09 GMT

the only thing worse than having your heart broken...

is being reminded of having your heart broken...and dealing with it all over again

* must be glorious
I must be a sight to see
Oh maybe you could comfort me
And I come to you strangled
In things I'm told are flattering
Maybe you could come and comfort me

And all the wan, hip, full lipped lovers
Are locked against one another
And I waiver, uncomfortable in my skin

Wait here for me
I'll be back for more and you'll see
And maybe, I'll be saved
And amazing again

You called us perfect
Because we slipped into awkward so easily
So maybe you could comfort me
And I've been better than this before
I know you've seen me be
So maybe you could come and comfort me

And all the wan, hip, full lipped lovers
Are locked against one another
And I waiver, uncomfortable in my skin

Wait here for me
I'll be back for more and you'll see
And maybe, I'll be saved
And I'll be amazing

Wait here for me
I'll be back for more and you'll see
And maybe, I'll be saved
And amazing again

Wait here for me
I'll be back for more and you'll see
And maybe, I'll be saved
And I'll be amazing

Wait here for me
I'll be back for more and you'll see
And maybe, I'll be saved
And amazing again*

i'm trying
really hard
i wish that was obvious

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 05:26:49 GMT

i thought it would not be possible to love being in a show and loving the cast more than brigadoon

this weekend i was proved wrong.

it wasnt better than brigadoon but it gave me the same feelings
of not wanting that final show to be over
of wanting to do one more hand jive, wanting to see grease lightning one more time, looking at crystal trying not to cry as we ran off stage for the last ACT 1 we would ever do, wanting more grease-isms, more dumb jokes, more silly hugs and blown kisses, more falling off the back of the stage, wearing the apple dress, parties in guam, the "rejects", being friends with people you thought you would never know, and just all the good memories i will carry and be able to add on to that file in my head labeled "college".

Grease was the word
<3 all you

blegh

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 19:53:44 GMT

so in addition to having a crazy week getting all my work done and getting ready for Grease this weekend with rehearsals that start at 5 and end at 10:30

my computer is effectively broken in fact i can barely see what i am writing right now because my screen is fucked beyond all words which means i need a new computer, exactly what my parents need to deal with right now...blegh

if anyone knows a lot about getting new laptops or switching all files from the previous computer to the new one i would be eternally grateful, otherwise all my music and pictures will be gone forever and im not gunna lie i dont think i could handle that.

so yes HELP please.

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 06:59:32 GMT

i was just watching Greys Anatomy to catch up on the last two weeks and i have discovered that

i am always O'Malley....always

and i want that to change